Who i ask?

I was very free and like what my previous post have stated, i am in the honeymoon holidays right now.
But then, i was uncertain about myself when people ask about what i am doing currently, study or work ?
I have no answer to the question since i already place myself in the path of waiting for master admission while at the mean time i can work part time to fill up the time.
but, what if the uni doesn't want to accept me .. am i suppose to look for full time permanent jobs to backup.. this sounds bad to me.

Friends were always asking what i wan to do in the following months.
I doubt what would be a better answer and certainly i don't want to think about it.
I just want to free myself.
most probably because i understand that i won't have another long holiday like this once i begin permanent career path.

I have just attended a relatives gathering.
they were asking me the same question again.
Everytime, my parents will answer that i wanted to futher masters study.
Well, i lose confident in this answer, because, i am afraid that when the uni doesn't accept me, no more education life, instead, a new career path.
And then, what i gonna work as ?
I dreamt of being an air stewardess. but it was cancelled from the career list when many objections appeared.
How bout as a lecturer, which seems to be the most proper choice. Am i able to talk and teach in front of a bunch of people. no no.
Maybe i should just work as office lady. Is there any office work suitable for bioinformatics degree holder? seems like scientist only work in lab.. but i dun want to be a scientist.
arrrrggggg.....

Life's short,
dun waste time of thinking.
I should have just enjoy this holiday as fruitful as it is.

It's my pleasure to know all of u..

The 160th post,
It has been through ups and downs, mountains and valleys, and it now stops at a nice station.
a 4 months of time in the station to recharge and rest for the following journey.

The first event right after the final examination of the degree program is to rush back from the examination hall, preparing ourself and take a train to the first destination - Klang.
The day before final exam and during the exam is filled with excitement and joy. Departure from university of malaya to Klang- Angel's house was never paused with laughs and noice of the 5 of us. I had my first sleepover in a friend's house there. The night is full with jokes and crazy talk that surely have disturbed her family. The next day, we had bak kut teh, dim sum, shopping together and bought same clothes for ourself.


In the late afternoon, tragedy happens when we all rush back to the residential kolej and pack our stuff like mad fellow. I dun remember myself organizing the stuff, instead, i was just throwing my belongings into the luggage and boxes then stuff them into the car. All of us sweating like hell and tire of running here and there. But, we still expect our dreams to come true. Finally, at night, we wore the same clothes and had a memorable night with each other.

The following day, we all dressed up nicely and headed to Holiday Villa, Subang Jaya (for the very first time). The feel was some sort like the MAK night held in our residential kolej but slightly different due to the tiredness. We have been through together so much than we could expect. We faced so many circumstances but yet, we are able to solve them up. I would really appreciate their existance from the bottom of the heart.


The second event was the Langkawi trip, althought it is not the happiest time we have been through. But it was also a part of the growing up process. I had my first time driving in Langkawi with a bunch of friends and planning our own trip.

Iterative loops

It's been awhile since i sit properly and think of what to blog.
I seriuosly open the blogspot new post and stare to this blank column and think.

ok. Let's talk about my recent life.
I am in the crossroad again.
I use again bacause i always have this problem : which path to choose?
Sometimes i suspect there is a type of disease called decision making disorder, and most probably i am having it.
Because i encounter the problem for several times and its still not cured.
No matter how big the issue is. From choosing a meal, a seat in cinema, an outfit, a stuff to buy to choosing what course to study, working in what field and so on. I always fails to decide.
for small cases such as choosing a meal, i might need up to an hour to make up my mind, if not, i will simply pick one.
Now, it comes back to the crossroad between study and work.
At the beginning of this year, i have never thought of continuing my study at all.
I told myself and even my friends that i have100% completely decided to work after graduation this year. I was so proud this time because i could make myself a huge decision so fast and certain.
But later,my decision becomes uncertain.
most of my coursemates were focus on to pursue higher education.
I start to be uncertain about the path.
another path was built and now, both seems equal.
which one?

After all experiences, i know what is the medicine to the disorder.
I need to someone who is able to decide things for me.
So i asked my parents, and they fully support me to continue study.
Now, my decision about the path is to continue study.

Then again, which course to study?
here comes the question again, again and again.